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Gossip Girl Season 2 Review (My Favourite Character)

The whole week...i've been watching Gossip Girl season 2. Quite makes me excited bout the drama and soooo addictive..because am the fanantic since season 1. tapi terbatal niat untuk meneruskan on the 2nd season..sebab aku pindah rumah and then kat rumah baru channel tak clear...

Gossip Girl is the story base on high schoolar life in Manhattan. Rich people with the social life. Yeah...kind of life i ever wanted...huhu...Love and Scandals they have...well this is my review of characters on this drama.


My favourite character:

Blair Waldorf (Queen of Monarchy)

Walaupun perangai agak annoying...tapi sikap Blair yang agak dedikasi dan bersungguh untuk mendapatkan apa yang dia inginkan...membuatkan "Blair, I admire you". Blair seorang yang degil..tapi dia seorang yang baik hati. She is the girl who makes some mistake..and she will regret once she knows she did wrong. that's kind of me... Blair is the only child in Waldorf family..jadi possible sekiranya dia harus memiliki apa yang dia inginkan. Yeah...she in love with Chuck Brass...the devil..and they are so sweet....couple...

Chuck @ Charles Bass (The Devil)

O.M.G!!! He is the most handsome guy that I ever seen in this world...i like kind of that guy...not too tall not too short...not so fat not so thin..just nice..and also the most thing is..HE HAS THE MANLY LOOK!!! i love that...hehe... Chuck is bad guy (as Gossip Girl call him..the devil), virgin killer, but inside his devil look...Chuck is nice, kind hearted, and very loyal to his love (towards Blair) and his best friend (Nate @ Nathaniel Archibald). The way loves Blair make me falling in love with Chuck...and of course I wish i can play "met" with him...ahahaha...Crazy!! Well, Chuck is coward guy (Gossip Girl find the is true) because he always ran away from the truth and reality of his life. Until one day his uncle, Jack Bass condemn him down. Jack, the only guidance that Chuck have for the time being. But he forget that he still have stepmother, Lily Bass. Lily trying to help Chuck take his legacy back from Jack by adopt Chuck as her son and she become Chuck guardian officially...

Nathaniel Archibald

Nate is positive guy. He matured because of his family problem.Not like other guy in this drama, Nate doesn't desperately looking for love.For him, let love come and grasp it..Nate, Chuck best friend and new guy-friend of Dan Humphrey. His family went bankrupt and his father was wanted by FBI. Nate couldn't face the reality that his family broke. He try to  cover the bankruptcy from his friend, but Chuck finding out. Get help from Dutches Catherine but he feel something wrong that he is being Gigolo. Chuck in love with Vanessa, Dan's best friend. When Dan find out his situation, Dan invite Nate to stay at his loft. Nate falling in love with Jenny Humphrey, Dan's sister. Dan could accept their relation and quarrel with Nate. Nate dating Blair, but their love couldn't last until entering the university.Blair still loving Chuck. Nate finally meet his family and entering Colombia University. Friend with Vanessa try to working out their new relation.

Hurt To Hurt

Bukan susah untuk jatuh cinta...dan bukan senang untuk melepaskan cinta.

Cinta yang bukan kehendak keluarga amat menyeksakan... Lebih-lebih lagi berlainan agama. Bila cinta tidak direstui oleh keluarga, dan terpaksa untuk berpisah demi kepentingan keluarga. Walaupun pilihan sendiri merupakan cinta yang lahir dari hati, dan sukar untuk kita melepaskan cinta itu. Ye lah...kalau dah kehidupan sudah seperti pasangan suami isteri dan pernah berhasrat untuk mendirikan rumah tangga secara sah, untuk melepaskan cinta memang perit. Kadang kala, menyalahkan diri sendiri kerana menyerahkan cinta melebih jiwa dan raga.

Melukakan hati cinta kita, sessuatu yang melukakan perasaan..bukan hanya orang yang kita lukai...tetapi hati kita sendiri. Demi keluarga, kita terpaksa melukakan nya. Memang sangat perit..dan luka yang kita tinggalkan untuk dia amat lah dalam.Dia menyayangi kita dengan sepenuh hati. Azam mendirikan rumah tangga mempunyai anak kecil semuanya musnah. Bila teringat balik segala janji yang pernah kita meterai suatu masa dulu, hati menangis sakit yang amat dalam. Dalam hati, mampu berdoa.

"Ya Tuhan ku, damaikan lah hati hamba-Mu ini. Berikan aku ketengan untuk menghadapi dugaan yang Kau sediakan. Ya Tuhan ku, berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk menghadapi semua ini."

Melukai hati cinta kita,sama seperti melukai diri sendiri. Cinta terluka kita pun terluka. Dia terluka kerana kita melukai perasaan dia. Kita memilih keluarga berbanding dia. Kita terluka kerana melukai hati cinta, menggalkan cinta, mengingkari janji cinta, dan paling tidak dapat diterimai adalah DITINGGALKAN dan MENINGGALKAN. Menangis 7 hari 7 malam...'berpuasa' 7 hari. Dalam hati mampu berdoa.

"Ya Tuhan ku, tabahkanlah hati aku. Berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk menghadapi semua ini."

I still can feel...

How can I make myself forget 'bout the little one...
My little one..
Eleven weeks and 2 days..
My little one...be with me..
everyday, everynight..
stick to me...

My little one...
everything goes unright
without her...
I cry every night..
I cry every single time
Every time I see others...
they holding them with
love, care, and happiness...

My Little one...
I still can feel her...
inside me...
because she is me..and me is her...

the unforgiveable...

i keep on standing in the arch of stone...
doesnt know where i should go...
doesn't know where i should be...
all the mistake that i made
make myself hard to walk,
just like am standing in the swamp...

for all the things that i have done,
the punnishment is really hard for me to stand
pain for me to feel
what i have done actually???

i just want to fly
far away from earth...
up away to blue skies...
but
can i???
the heat of the fire...
the cries of the sinners...
is that place i will go???
or....
i just going nowhere..
standing here
no place to go...
no face i've known...
stranger in my eyes...
no one heard my voice...

what i have done actually??
am i the UNFORGIVEABLE??
are all the mistakes that i'd make
can't be FORGIVE??

i think by myself...
where should i be...
where should i go
and...

AM I THE UNFORGIVEABLE???

If you speak in english...

>>>Kisah ini tiada kaitan antara hidup atau mati.terlebih dulu memohon maaf kepada yang terasa.<<<



Ini kisah yang baru aku jumpa dan alami...semasa aku on the way nak pergi berjumpa dengan aboy tadi...menunggu ERL di Putrajaya Sentral...



Semasa aku menunggu tren...tiba-tiba seorang perempuan muncul duduk di tepi aku.dia menggapai hp...dia mulakan perbualan "hello, where are you?" owe...cakap omputih...hehee....balak omputih kowt....so aku ignore je...



pas tu otak jahat aku curi-curi dengar...



"i (i'm / i am) at putrajaya right now. i have presentation for the    at school at (in) putrajaya. (that) the school near to apa?? alamanda, so i go (went) there lah to (for) shopping.(the) teacher (who teaching at the school) there send (fetch) me to alamanda."



ayat nie aku memang ingat betol-betol dalam kepala aku...kalu orang yang dengar memang lah diorang ingat 'pandai minah nie cakap omputih'



Tapi...kalau dah tulis...balik ape yang die cakap...yang kat atas tu lah jadi nye..kalau teliti betul-betul...banyak grammar error...huhu...bukan aku nak pandai-pandai betulkan...tapi kalau orang asing (foreigner) dengar..gelak wooo.... masa aku keja kauter (front counter) aku penah tersilap ayat...orang foreigner tu gelak kat aku...
aku suh die cop mende alah tu sendiri...dengan cop yang disediakan...kebetolan aku ngah mamai bangun tido...aku cakap "STAMP WITH THE STAMPER" aha!! ape lagi kena gelak aa... foreigner tu ajuk aku balik 'stamp with the stamper'....kannn....sepatutnya aku cakap macam nie "self stamp here please" adoii...malu tol..tapi tak pe...janji aku pandai cakap omputih sudahhh...



balik kepada citer pompuan tu...masa dia dok cakap banyak perkataan 'lah' kuar. at last dia cakap gak bahasa melayu...senang je kalau die nak cakap bahasa melayu.ada satu lagi  ayat yang aku hampir nak terglak penggunan.



"ahahaha...you gonna do it...it your assignment..you have to bring some books..."



Gonna do it >>> you  have to do it..its your task...



"i will take cab..." ----> i will take a cab / taxi





tapi aku tak kesah grammar dia cakap terbalik...aku bangga dia berani cakap omputih..walaupun tak tersusun...aku sendiri pun kadang-kadang tersasul gak...fail gak... So...kesimpulan ya...aku bangga ngan minah tu tadi....

Haruskah...??Perlukah???

hurmmm...
aku berasa amat takut bila teringat kembali bahawa hari itu bakal menjelma...apa yang harus aku lakukan...dah sebulan aku tahu aku ada dia...kini aku harus menyingkirkan dia dari hidup ku...

Walaupun dua bulan dia bersama ku...merasai kasih sayang dari insan yang sama menyayangi kami berdua...Walaupun kekadang aku memarahi dia kerana aku terseksa kerana dia...tetapi...kasih sayang aku terhadap dia wujud...dia bukti segalanya...tapi haruskah aku menyingkirkan dia...??

Perlukah dia dihapuskan??

Walaupun hati dan perasaan aku mengatakan tidak..aku terpaksa memilih jalan menyingkirkan dia dari hidup aku dan insan yang menyanyangi kami berdua. Apabila aku melihat kawan-kawan dia yang ada disekelilingku...aku menangis...Haruskah aku menyingkirkan dia...??? Adakah tiada jalan lain yang aku perlu aku harus lalui...???

Haruskah???

Mungkin bagi yang tidak pernah mengalami perasaan seperti ku...bagi mereka amat mudah...aku menerima dia dengan air mata..air mata gembira...sedih...keliru...bila aku menyingkirkan dia..pasti aku akan menjatuhkan air mata kesedihan, sengsara, hampa, benci, dan segala perasaan yang aku sendiri tidak dapat memaafkan diri aku.

Kata mama....

Ada hikmah aku harus menyingkirkan dia.aku harus faham keadaan aku sekarang.

Kata Deedee...

Mungkin belum tiba masa aku perlu ada dia...

Kata ...

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...Hanya Tuhan saja yang tahu perasaan seorang >>> I**B**U<<<