Its Me: Take my Breath away

Its Me: Take my Breath away

Take my Breath away

If you love someone with all your heart, its very difficult for you let  them go. Especially when both of you were still in love with each other. Its so hard to let go.But you have too...for your own future. That is what happened me and B. I love B so much...Just because of family and my future I have to let him go. For my own best..like some of my friends said.

I like to be firm to let him go..its not easy as people say. I have to cry...I have to pray a lot...but none of this pray will close my heart toward my love. Everything I want in this world is someone I love and love me back. I doesn't want to be broken heart and lost my hope. I did everything to make myself hate him...but all the things I did make my self be cut and cut. 

Take my breath away! that is what I want! 

I love B..but I couldn't.

I love B so much...but I have to let go.

I'm smiling...but deep in my heart..i am NOT smiling

I'm laughing...but every night I cry..so heavily

Quotes from Gossip Girl Season 2 (Blair, Jenny and Sarena)

my favourite quote from Blair Waldorf

Blair: That's the thing. You need to be cool to be queen. Anne Boleyn thought only with her heart and she got her head chopped off. So her daughter Elizabeth made a vow never to marry a man. She married a country. Forget boys. Keep your eye on the prize, Jenny Humphrey. You can't make people love you, but you can make them fear you. For what it's worth, you're my Queen. I choose you. 


for more quotes...see here...

from Jenny Humphrey

Jenny: This graduation is a celebration for us, too. No more mean girls! We have suffered under their dictatorship for way too long. Starting next fall, there will be peace in the kingdom. 

for more quotes ... see it here...

from Sarena Van der Woodsen

Serena: Only two people knew about it. You and Dan. And Dan would never do something like that. I always want to believe the best in you, Blair. The bottom line is, betrayal's in your nature.

for more quotes see it here

Love drive ne CRAZY!!!

i can't help it!!! love turning me down!!!

Gossip Girl Season 2 Review (My Favourite Character)

The whole week...i've been watching Gossip Girl season 2. Quite makes me excited bout the drama and soooo addictive..because am the fanantic since season 1. tapi terbatal niat untuk meneruskan on the 2nd season..sebab aku pindah rumah and then kat rumah baru channel tak clear...

Gossip Girl is the story base on high schoolar life in Manhattan. Rich people with the social life. Yeah...kind of life i ever wanted...huhu...Love and Scandals they have...well this is my review of characters on this drama.


My favourite character:

Blair Waldorf (Queen of Monarchy)

Walaupun perangai agak annoying...tapi sikap Blair yang agak dedikasi dan bersungguh untuk mendapatkan apa yang dia inginkan...membuatkan "Blair, I admire you". Blair seorang yang degil..tapi dia seorang yang baik hati. She is the girl who makes some mistake..and she will regret once she knows she did wrong. that's kind of me... Blair is the only child in Waldorf family..jadi possible sekiranya dia harus memiliki apa yang dia inginkan. Yeah...she in love with Chuck Brass...the devil..and they are so sweet....couple...

Chuck @ Charles Bass (The Devil)

O.M.G!!! He is the most handsome guy that I ever seen in this world...i like kind of that guy...not too tall not too short...not so fat not so thin..just nice..and also the most thing is..HE HAS THE MANLY LOOK!!! i love that...hehe... Chuck is bad guy (as Gossip Girl call him..the devil), virgin killer, but inside his devil look...Chuck is nice, kind hearted, and very loyal to his love (towards Blair) and his best friend (Nate @ Nathaniel Archibald). The way loves Blair make me falling in love with Chuck...and of course I wish i can play "met" with him...ahahaha...Crazy!! Well, Chuck is coward guy (Gossip Girl find the is true) because he always ran away from the truth and reality of his life. Until one day his uncle, Jack Bass condemn him down. Jack, the only guidance that Chuck have for the time being. But he forget that he still have stepmother, Lily Bass. Lily trying to help Chuck take his legacy back from Jack by adopt Chuck as her son and she become Chuck guardian officially...

Nathaniel Archibald

Nate is positive guy. He matured because of his family problem.Not like other guy in this drama, Nate doesn't desperately looking for love.For him, let love come and grasp it..Nate, Chuck best friend and new guy-friend of Dan Humphrey. His family went bankrupt and his father was wanted by FBI. Nate couldn't face the reality that his family broke. He try to  cover the bankruptcy from his friend, but Chuck finding out. Get help from Dutches Catherine but he feel something wrong that he is being Gigolo. Chuck in love with Vanessa, Dan's best friend. When Dan find out his situation, Dan invite Nate to stay at his loft. Nate falling in love with Jenny Humphrey, Dan's sister. Dan could accept their relation and quarrel with Nate. Nate dating Blair, but their love couldn't last until entering the university.Blair still loving Chuck. Nate finally meet his family and entering Colombia University. Friend with Vanessa try to working out their new relation.

Hurt To Hurt

Bukan susah untuk jatuh cinta...dan bukan senang untuk melepaskan cinta.

Cinta yang bukan kehendak keluarga amat menyeksakan... Lebih-lebih lagi berlainan agama. Bila cinta tidak direstui oleh keluarga, dan terpaksa untuk berpisah demi kepentingan keluarga. Walaupun pilihan sendiri merupakan cinta yang lahir dari hati, dan sukar untuk kita melepaskan cinta itu. Ye lah...kalau dah kehidupan sudah seperti pasangan suami isteri dan pernah berhasrat untuk mendirikan rumah tangga secara sah, untuk melepaskan cinta memang perit. Kadang kala, menyalahkan diri sendiri kerana menyerahkan cinta melebih jiwa dan raga.

Melukakan hati cinta kita, sessuatu yang melukakan perasaan..bukan hanya orang yang kita lukai...tetapi hati kita sendiri. Demi keluarga, kita terpaksa melukakan nya. Memang sangat perit..dan luka yang kita tinggalkan untuk dia amat lah dalam.Dia menyayangi kita dengan sepenuh hati. Azam mendirikan rumah tangga mempunyai anak kecil semuanya musnah. Bila teringat balik segala janji yang pernah kita meterai suatu masa dulu, hati menangis sakit yang amat dalam. Dalam hati, mampu berdoa.

"Ya Tuhan ku, damaikan lah hati hamba-Mu ini. Berikan aku ketengan untuk menghadapi dugaan yang Kau sediakan. Ya Tuhan ku, berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk menghadapi semua ini."

Melukai hati cinta kita,sama seperti melukai diri sendiri. Cinta terluka kita pun terluka. Dia terluka kerana kita melukai perasaan dia. Kita memilih keluarga berbanding dia. Kita terluka kerana melukai hati cinta, menggalkan cinta, mengingkari janji cinta, dan paling tidak dapat diterimai adalah DITINGGALKAN dan MENINGGALKAN. Menangis 7 hari 7 malam...'berpuasa' 7 hari. Dalam hati mampu berdoa.

"Ya Tuhan ku, tabahkanlah hati aku. Berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk menghadapi semua ini."

I still can feel...

How can I make myself forget 'bout the little one...
My little one..
Eleven weeks and 2 days..
My little one...be with me..
everyday, everynight..
stick to me...

My little one...
everything goes unright
without her...
I cry every night..
I cry every single time
Every time I see others...
they holding them with
love, care, and happiness...

My Little one...
I still can feel her...
inside me...
because she is me..and me is her...